"Have patience—wait, but do not sit idle; work while you are waiting; smile while you are wearied with monotony; be firm while everything around you is being shaken; be joyous while the ugly face of despair grins at you; speak aloud while the malevolent forces of the nether world try to crush your mind; be valiant and courageous while men all around you are cringing with fear and cowardice."
i just like to give this life some meaning. & i strive to be the best i can be-nicer, smarter, stronger.
we all have our problems. but that's one of life's best qualities. balance.
anytime a guy says “that’s what she said” always reply with “not to you”
sleeping w/ my christmas lights on because i can.
late night sadness. wtf. i’m not even sad. but i don’t wanna sleep cuz i think that tomorrow will suck. even though i know it won’t. wtf. brains are CRAYCRAY
In eighth grade, I was sitting on the edge of a friend’s porch with him. We talked about what super powers we’d want. I wished for empathy — being able to feel other people’s emotions and not be apathetic and not not care. In middle school, I found myself not understanding why something was so scary or sad or so exciting. I wanted to know how others felt. I wanted to understand. I wanted to feel what they feel and connect in this spiritual way.
WELL SHIT. Be careful what you wish for.
When a 13 year old girl runs out of her house crying, trying to hide her tears from people outside. When the news shows videos of fires burning down buildings upon buildings. When a friend is sitting there giving one word answers back during a conversation over dinner. It just gets to me.
I’m not here to say I’m now a super empathetic person. I would say far from. I still sometimes can’t understand and experience what people are feeling and understand why they’re feeling it. However, when I do have this reoccurring empathy experience, I don’t know what to do with the empathy. What am I supposed to say? What to do? The build up of emotion is like a pot of water that is getting hotter and hotter.
At this point, my go-to is to just dump the water out, ignore it. I’m still working on how to cope with situations where I understand, yet still not know how to apply my understanding.
And I think this is where a lot of people in present-day society are. It is why people think others don’t care. People don’t know how to communicate their care and compassion, so they just don’t. It’s not that they don’t care or love, but they just lack the knowledge of how to communicate they’re empathy.
need to sleeeeeep. why am i UPPPPP #firstgif
got christmas lights up, candy canes hung, some hot cocoa in my ariel mug—-this seattle apartment is starting to feel like home <3